What you desire most, lies in the places you dare not look

I often wonder why I didn’t start Merak sooner. For a long time, I held back—overthinking, second-guessing, and letting outside noise shape my decisions. I thought I needed to wait for the right time, or for people to understand what I was trying to do. Looking back, I realise the only thing standing in the way was me.

Since beginning Merak, my perspective has shifted completely. It’s not just about making videos—it’s about building a platform that feels true to me. Every shoot, every conversation, every moment we capture reminds me why I should’ve been doing this all along. Merak has shown me that the only opinion that matters is my own. When I lean into what feels right, everything else starts to flow. Sitting with Zia to make gnocchi, exploring markets with my brother Jordan, or mapping out new ideas with friends—these aren’t just episodes, they’re living records of culture, family, and community. What started as small experiments have become stories that carry real weight, and the act of documenting them has changed the way I see myself and the possibilities around me.

The more I create, the more doors I see opening. Food stories, fashion tie-ins, cultural diaries, collaborations with people who inspire me—it feels like Merak is only scratching the surface of what it can be. Episode 3 is already on the horizon. This time I’m reconnecting with my old friend Sal—the “Lebo Martha Stewart.” She’s a creative force, a mum, and someone whose style and perspective fit perfectly into what Merak stands for. Together, we’ll create something raw, warm, and full of energy—an episode that blends culture, friendship, and creativity in the way only Merak can.

I don’t know exactly where this journey will lead, but I know this: Merak is about sincerity, storytelling, and showing life as it is. It’s about turning ideas into something tangible, and letting them live in the world instead of staying in my head. Fuck, short form content.

Merak Ep. 2 was definitely a lesson in the logistics of making this all work.